I have a big fat rod on my back.
I’m quite proud of it. I’ve been cultivating it for a while. It’s taken months to make it this big. Months of breastfeeding before naps, months of cuddles with the Magic Blanket, months of getting up in the night. It really is a very big rod.
Now here is my question: does it matter?
Am I a bad mother because I am giving my baby what she wants, when she wants it? It’s not some kind of Earth Mother thing I have going on here, I just can’t stand to hear her cry.
If she plays up for her Dad when I’m not around, is it my fault for being too cuddly with her? If she wakes in the night for a feed, is it my fault for feeding her at night in the first place? Who says all babies should sleep through by six months anyway?
On the whole, she’s a pretty happy baby. She’s content to suck her thumb and go to sleep on her own most nights. But sometimes she’s not. Sometimes she needs a little help.