I’m dreading tomorrow. I’m anticipating tomorrow. I can’t wait for it to come. The thought of it fills me with dread.
Tomorrow.
Tomorrow I should find out what is wrong with my little girl, if anything. Tomorrow I should find out if my non-toddling toddler is just a late walker or if there is, indeed, a more sinister reason for her lack of mobility.
Tomorrow we shall navigate our way to a room in a large hospital in the centre of a busy town, to sit with a consultant who will examine my beautiful baby.
He will tell me if there is a problem with her hips. A problem which will require an operation. A problem which will require a cast. For months. A problem which could – worse case scenario – see me have to give up my job to look after my special daughter.
Or he could tell us there is no reason for her wonky stature and lopsided gait. He could tell us she just isn’t ready to get up on her two feet by herself yet. He could tell us that, at nearly 2 years old, my little Frog is just a bit behind.
He could refer us to someone else, an expert in another area, to look at another reason for the fact she’s been up on her feet for 6 months now, struggling desperately to make it on her own, without holding her mum’s hand.
Or there may be no conclusion. I don’t know which is worse. The answer I dread or not knowing at all.
Desperate to walk alone.
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Knowing will be better, frog will be fine, much love, call me after x
Will do. Wish I was as strong as you. I’m a bloody wreck this evening! x
Ha, I sobbed for ages with libs, but was better when we knew. Look at her (frog) she is an intelligent, beautiful little girl. This time tomorrow she will be exactly the same.
Hugs x
Ha, I sobbed for ages with libs, but was better when we knew. Look at her (frog) she is an intelligent, beautiful little girl. This time tomorrow she will be exactly the same.
Hugs x x x
Good luck for tomorrow. Will be thinking of you *hug*
Thank you. You’re lovely. x
knowing is always better, whatever will be will be.. and you will all face it head on and find away no matter what the answers are… i will be thinking of you x
Thank you Sarah. I know, whatever the outcome, we’ll get through it. Just nervous. You’re right, knowing is always better.
Horrid, horrid, horrid. And terrifying. Shall think of you both with might and main Make sure you post as soon as you know anything.
Thank you, it’s lovely to know people will be thinking of us. x
My thoughts will be with you all x
Thank you lovely x
It will be fine. I have a feeling they might find something, but it will help her and be good to get her walking as she needs to. You’ll get her through, we always do, us mothers.
You’re so right Merry. Thank you. I know, in the grand scheme of things, it will be fine. Whatever it is, it will be fine and we’ll tackle it together. x
So sorry to hear this. Fingers and toes crossed for you xxx
Thanks Han. xxx
Hope you get the answer. Know you will cope and deal with it whatever it is, but of course that doesn’t make it any better… Fingers tightly crossed x
Thanks so much Steph. Been bowled over by the huge support in Blogland this evening. x
I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. Whatever happens you’ll get to look back at that photograph someday and you may even miss this time when she held on to you rather than walked away from you.
I do hope so. It sounds so much better, when you put it like that. x
I KNOW how you feel, I felt it and still do. My god you have opened up old wounds for me with this post. Lump in throat- tears stinging my eyes. But you cope you have too. As you know I’ve taken a year off to deal with this and there are lots of blessings to. Please let me know how it goes tomorrow. I will be thinking of you. x
Sorry to open up old wounds Emma. You’ve been a massive inspiration though and I know, if it does turn out to be a hip issue, we’ll attempt to face it as bravely as you and your family have. x
Not always brave – the tears flow freely many times. But you don’t really get a choice do you. You just have to go with it and go with it you will. Our children are the real inspiration. 🙂
Better to know, I think, and then find out how best to help her. Hope it’s just needing a little more time. x
Thanks Erica. I will literally have every toe crossed tomorrow! Not sure how that will help me walking into the consultant’s office but it’s worth a shot! x
Such lovely replies already but wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you. Be strong. xx
Thanks Kate. I’m trying to get rid of all the nerves this evening, while she sleeps, so that tomorrow I can face whatever the day has to throw at me with a smile on my face, just for Frog. x
Hang in there. Thinking of you. My daughter didn’t walk until she was two and had lots of sensitivity issues, but she’s absolutely fine now. I remember a similar meeting with her consultant many years ago. Not easy. x
It’s so uplifting for me to hear from other people who’ve been in a similar situation. Makes me realise and hope that this difficult phase is just a small window in her life which, ultimately, she won’t remember anyway. Thank you. x
Big hugs Molly.I remember when Kieran had all his allergy tests the first time and when Caitlin had a floppy larynx.I wondered how on earth I could cope, how they could cope.But if there is something wrong, (and I hope not) you will get through it.Whether if it’s privately or through finding those online who have been through the same.
Thanks Aly. I’ve been really touched by the messages of support I’ve had online tonight, from friends I “know” and those I only “know” online. Moved me to tears. I really need to man up!
Good luck x
Thanks Sandy x
Good luck!
There’s nothing I can say that hasn’t already been said, but best of luck and no matter the result you will always find a way through it.
The not know is the worst part of this. I can not promise all will be fine, what I can promise is that you will manage whatever you have to
Good luck, I hope it all goes well xx
Will be thinking of you tomorrow, big hugs. If it’s any consolation I remember the feeling so well 22 years ago, such an awful thing to have to do. If someone could have shown me the future I wouldn’t have felt so bad. Whatever it is or isn’t, tomorrow is the beginning of making it better xxx
Will be thinking of you tomorrow, big hugs. I remember the feeling well, 22 years ago; such an awful thing to have to face. If it’s any consolation, if someone had shown me the future I wouldn’t have felt half so bad, I promise. Whatever it is, or isn’t tomorrow is the beginning of making it better xxx
Sincerely hope you get good news tomorrow x
I’m thinking of you. I know I’ve said it before, but it bears repeating: I have total faith in you. No matter the news, you and Frog will find your footing together.
Still, I hope it’s good news.
Your post is really touching and I really feel for your little girl. I can’t even imagine what you must be going through. Your little girl looks so sweet, and I wish all is well and hopefully things will work out all right.
All the luck and good thoughts in the world. You’ll get through, and do what you have to do because that’s motherhood, but you’ve got us all behind you. I’ll be thinking of you.
Will be thinking of you today missus – whatever the news is, it’ll be progress. Better to know. Big love and hugs, let us know how you get on xx
its tomorrow, hope you are getting the answers you need and that all is well. Whatever the outcome you will deal with it, she is a beautiful child, best of luck xx
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